We all are given gifts and challenges, both of mine are mental. Diagnosed with schizophrenia, I believe, because its easier to call it a name, but it is what it is. I've met a few others with similar experiences, but many seem to have no idea what I'm talking about when I say there are different realities. Ones where, for example, trees are much more than trees, there are spiritual worlds, magical worlds, and such. I'm not trying or nor do I care to sell you on this. This is my reality. I believe it from personal experience, just as you believe in yours. And I occasionally slip back and forth between realities.
About a year ago, its almost like all the planets aligned, if you were to call the planets my life events, and everything pointed to "I got to get out of here" and I urgently looked for the exit.
Now this is why I am writing this review. I have this belief I cannot shake, that my eyes lie. Illusions. I am not really here.
When the matrix came out, I felt like almost relieved. Someone else has this belief. So, I thought my prescribed glasses were like making me see a false reality, and I chucked them in the lake. Also, most will not understand this, I got my son's glasses and smashed them with a rock. However this is like you don't want to drive to Mexico so you smash up your car, or you start beating on the road with a bat. I believe we all have a ,mission, and we can only do the next right thing, even if its a dream or illusion, it is our reality, and if we do not complete our mission, we are going to have to do it again, but it will be harder the next time. My belief.
Now I cannot read, and my son cannot read or watch tv. I eventually come back. I again believe glasses are helpful. If its an illusion, its my illusion, and it is what whoever put me here, who I call God, wants me to see. And glasses help me see it.
So it's been about a year, and I kind of coast the reviews of eye doctors, and get like a nudge, and choose Pearle Vision in Lynnhaven Mall Virginia Beach. I see Dr. Ferrara.
I know now it was a God Wink. The only thing I really trust is love. My wife, son, and dog for example are my anchor here, and the plan, the plan is the only thing that keeps me going. And all my anchors are love. Tied to my heart. And when I see love in others, and I see it, I don't care who they are or what they have done, I trust them. Dr. Ferrara is doing his mission. I told him briefly, of what happened, and my mistrust of glasses, and I would call Dr. Ferrara an Agent of God. The way he smiled and did not laugh at me, but understood. We talked awhile. This man really wants to help. He is better and more healing than any psychologist I have ever seen. Mainly, I believe, because he doesn't study psychology, and talks from the heart.
One day, bored, I looked into how many "creative" movies, books, beliefs, works of art, really anything with a depth of creativity, even philosophy, astrology, physics, space travel, almost anything that the culture has taken and adapted into, is created by someone with a mental "illness", I would, my belief, say than what makes that an illness? Anyway, my soap box. But shine love on everything, and it always comes out beautiful. Like a fresh snow. Our a lit candle in an ugly carved pumpkin.
Dr. Ferrara brought me back. To my mission. Gave me hope. Sense of purpose. And now I can read. And guess what? I'm a writer, so you know, its kind of necessary. He went over my eyes like a little kid at the beach. Professional. Thorough. I opted in for the extra thing, and he checked everything out for me. This is his gift. And just like if golf was never invented Tiger Woods never would have found he had a gift to hit a little ball into a hole a mile down the road, Dr. Ferrara has found his gift. And he is an expert at it. My optic nerves are healthy, but the holes that lead into my brain or something are different sizes, and if I don't take some measures, I may develop I think it was glaucoma? So we have a plan. Early detection is crucial.. I never would of known that, and had Dr. Ferrara been like not that understanding of my experiences, I would immediately gotten up and left. Some people try to bury you in their own fears, and tell you why you cant do it, or why you are wrong. Choose Love. Even if you do not really understand. Every thought is either love or fear based. Love is holy, fear is world made. We always have a choice.
I am so so grateful I choose Dr. Ferrara. By far the best eye doctor out there. Oh, and my son picks up his glasses today. And now he can watch tv. And you have no idea how happy that makes me, as I feel things are back to the way they should be, and of course I was responsible and others, my loved ones, suffered. Stay in the moment. Do the next right thing. Follow your heart, its God's compass put in your chest. Let the river take you where the river will, and remember its meant to be fun. read more