I APOLOGIZE 4THE LENGTH--THIS IS ABT LOVE,
IT'S ABT LOVE,…read moreIT'S ABT LOVE --ETERNAL
2 WRITE THIS MUCH BROKE MY HEART & COVERED MY PHN W/ BITTER TEARS~
I don't want 2 bore anyone, but this is still hurting my soul, it will 4EVER, & no body gives a...I don't speak of those who crossed over in the past tense. The spirit is 4EVER
If this reads bitter, it is... I was mistreated & maltreated by the very organization, not business, who brokered an adoption for my baby in 2016. Now, I'm not worthy.
Look @ the photo below my name, u will c a bunny 2 the left. He is my baby--LA RABBIT FOUNDATION brokered that adoption with me December 2016, two months after I lost my former baby. He is the most handsome jet black lop baby I ever saw. Our DVM said the same thing. Attitude 2ward me, but I know he loves me because I love him so very much--almost 10 years 2007). He saw, felt, heard, touched, smelled, and tasted my love when I fed him after he was unable 2 chew raw veg.
We were blessed w/a pretty, pretty little girl (approx 2011) who chose us a few years after our jet black lop. (she's in the photo). After a some fighting, etc., they became so very close 2012-2016). My Mommy passed away March 2016, I had 2 babies who love me whom I love & swore 2 protect. Mommy always said, after she realized how much love a bunny could give (our 1st 2003), 'they come first.' My baby girl needed another brother. She was so lonely--I couldn't stand it. It hurt so much to witness her emptiness.
My adopted baby, who was given away after six years, was perfect 4 my little girl & me. Tentative & distrustful-- probably b/c of wht he endured fr the people who decided 2 give him up. Kind, helpful & shy, the cutest white bunny with blue eyes ever. He has many nicknames, but my favorite is, 'Little Bear'. I sing, 'Time Will Reveal' by DeBarge so he knows I love him & help gain his trust and comfort.
Fast forward...the am of 10/28/2021, my baby boy lay in his hiding box near death. I spent 2 hrs calling all over LA 2 find an emergency for rabbits. Finally, I did. Halloween @12:20pm, my baby was dead, & I was out $4K. I did everything I could, gave permission--do whtever needed 2 save him; spent all that money & after everything we went thru, all we got was a dead baby in a white box & an extremely disturbed little bunny girl. I took her with me. We are a family.
Fast forward, early Tuesday morning B4 Thanksgiving, I hv no idea wht happened w/my little girl. Our DVM came Wednesday. It seemed to be vertigo, so they cleaned her ears, flushed them thoroughly + antibacs. The issue did not even begin to correct itself. I realize bunnies do not vomit, however my baby's little stomach was heaving &, all of a sudden, some liquid came out of her nose. I held her all day & all night w/the exception of a few breaks the rest of the week. I didn't want her to spin like she had been doing. I scheduled an emergency appointment 4 that Sunday, spent upwards of $1500, & ER doctor dx neurological issues. Our DVM agreed.
I kept her on my bed day & night, held her 2 my chest, fed/watered her every 2 hrs day & night. There is a lot I did in between. I've got photo receipts. 12/28 @8:25 AM, my girl & I looked into each others eyes, she let out a scream, and she was gone. I sang a song I chose that matched her personality years ago, Rick James' 'Cold Blooded' as I held her dead body in my arms.
If this isn't true love, I don't know what it is. I swore an oath 2 all my babies I would do everything I could 2 care 4 them, keep them safe, & they wouldn't hv 2 worry abt nothing.
I realized since 2003, whn my 1st baby chose me, we had not been w/o a bunnies 4 19 years. Our DVM suggested thinking abt adopting a sweet little girl she would hv, if she didn't have a dog. The suggestion was based on the fact I lost 2 babies in 2 months.
After a while, & I hv all the receipts, I filled out adoption 'papers' 4 the sweet little girl recommended by our DVM. I heard nothing 4 abt 2 wks. I sent a f/u email, & that very same day they replied,
'We don't have a good match for you at this time.
So sorry about the loss of your little love.
We will let you know if anything changes!'
This is the most dehumanizing, humiliating, soul gutting email fr an organization, not business, I ever received. LAR approved adoption 4 my baby 5 yrs prior, now there's no match for me. There r bunches of rabbits on the site--single rabbits & bonded rabbits, etc. I was open, that's wht I wrote in my application however, 2 them, the director, I'm not good enuf. I'm not good enuf 2B a bunny Mommy, NOW?!?
I don't know why I was mercilessly rejected by LAF &, tho I wouldn't expect a reply, I do not want anything 2 do w/them. The snide remark about losing my baby was a stab to my heart and diminished his sweet, sweet, loving little life!
BITTER = YES
DEEPLY MOURNING & CRYING ALL DY/NIGHT = YES