Last week I was subjected to public humiliation at Trader Joe's 10 4th Street in San Francisco. I allowed myself to be humiliated in order to keep my loss of dignity from turning into a potentially life threatening situation. In the climate of Mario Woods being murdered over a bus transfer, Alex Nieto being murdered for eating a burrito, and other men of color being gunned down by police, I avoid at all costs, any situation that could possibly end up in police interaction. Oh, but that's right, I'm African American, almost anything can lead to police interaction.
While shopping, my grandmother always warned us growing up:
"Stay close and keep your hands to yourself....."
"We're being followed."
At a young age, I always thought she was being paranoid until last week's experience at #traderjoes I never realized that her "paranoia" was actually a response to a threat of mistreatment, an outcry, a defense mechanism that she had to use, even when grocery shopping. You see, my grandmother lived under the constant indignity of being Black and had developed strong coping skills to help her continue to hold her head up high. Apparently, being a 28 year old, African American ballet dancer living in "liberal" San Francisco means that you can't forget that your 2017 life isn't completely different from that of your grandma's and that life can be subjected to humiliation and potential danger by anyone who points their finger in your direction.
On April 18th I was found "guilty"....guilty of Shopping While Black (forever forward coined SWB) in a city that claims a liberalism and openness of ideas, and yet the African American population has been decimated to 3%. At the downtown San Francisco at Market & 4th St approximately 8:15am a Trader Joe's employee singled me out that a random employee could target me, point the finger, have me publicly humiliated, and assuming if I didn't comply to their search, call the police (which as a Black man could be life ending) is terrifying. I had made my yuppy purchases of a salad and protein bar then stopped off at the bathroom before my Bart ride to ballet rehearsal. Apparently, I was followed to the restroom, because as I exited there was a gathering of folks (that I yet didn't understand were stationed there because of me) that followed me to the exit of the store. A manager then interrogated and searched my bags, citing that one of his employees accused me of "stealing edamame." Edamame? As in the green soy bean?
The manager on duty asked about the contents of my bag. I assured him I only had what I paid for and could recover a receipt. Out of utter shock and fright, I offered and then opened my grocery bag to put this humiliation to end. My mind was racing as the other shoppers stared at me. How is it that an employee can just accuse someone of stealing, then that customer searched? I had just shopped at my favorite store but then decided to steal green soy beans?
After searching my grocery bag, the manager proceeded to ask to look in my personal bag. What if I said, "no", that my ballet slippers and my tights were my business? Would it escalate? Would they call the police? Would the police be reasonable? To "resolve" this targeted finger pointing, my confused and scared self allowed my dignity to be stripped and let them rummage through my personal bag. When they were done soiling my pride with their rummaging hands, there was zero apology for my embarrassment. Or for his FALSE accusation -- Only a mere "I'm just trying to do my job. Have a nice day".
Have a nice day?
There was no personal responsibility or accountability taken and that has a powerful impact. So, Trader Joe's has created a culture that any employee can target a shopper for an unreasonable search? Any random employee can point and say "Over there! " or "Him over there!" and that customer is instantly criminalized? Implicit in the interaction is that you should let it happen or worse things will happen to you?
Trader Joe's has made it clear that people of color are not welcome in their store. Trader Joe's has made it clear that they are partners in the gentrification and marginalization of people of color in San Francisco. I've reached out to corporate to find out what their policies are for accusing someone of stealing and implementing a search...they are yet to get back to me.
So Trader Joe's you are just "doing [your] job". Your job has criminalized me while doing the most mundane of tasks.
How are you screening your employees? If you're training your employees to make Black customers feel unwanted and unwelcome, you've succeeded. If you're training your employees to crush innocent people's dignity and strike fear in their heart's, you've succeeded. If you're trying to drive home that Black bodies are not welcome in the most common of places in San Francisco, you've succeeded. If you're trying to lose me as a customer for life, you've succeeded. read more