You will not leave unchanged, if you leave at all.
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I am still haunted by this place and it has been over a decade. I was sent at 15. I am leaning towards 28 now. I can't remember a lot of my life anymore, but I remember here. The brain remembers trauma to try and make sure you don't get stuck in it again. I will recall the name "Sheppard Pratt" until my body has turned into bone in the ground. It has made me unable to go anywhere for help in fear I will end up back in a place like this again. This has impacted my abilities to get help for the rest of my life.
I genuinely was misdiagnosed and sent here, and it almost killed me. I have still not fully recovered and have haunted memories. They will LIE to you. LIE to the parents. They told my parents I would die if they did not check me in, lied to them about conditions, capabilities, and truly is a hell on earth.
They don't mention you must request 72 hours in advance to try and get your kid back, by the way, and will lie to get someone admitted and exaggerate their well-being or lack of to scare someone into signing away their child's soul in the name of salvation.
They informed my parents that they could handle my panic attacks, nope, they won't do anything. The staff may even make fun of you depending on who it is. They are not equipped to handle emotions and it feels like you're in the Stamford Prison Experiment.
You are no longer human. You are something less than.
Do you like needles? You have a fear of them, you say? Don't worry, you will have your blood drawn every day! Don't worry, you aren't allowed to stand. Research said refeeding syndrome can happen, for a few weeks, but you're not allowed to move ever. Also it only happens to genuine starved anorexics, but now you are that, plus all the other ED's because they treat you like you are guilty of every crime there! Innocent? NO YOU ARE NOT! Why? BECAUSE WE SAY SO!
Get ready to be the toys in Toy Story and lie lifeless on the floor with the light gone from your eyes! That happens to people that are there longer.
You will be deprived, ignored, punished, embarrassingly lead around in a paper gown naked and rushed to a two-few minute shower and led to where you are all weighed every single day.
I saw a new hire nurse hold back tears over how we were all being treated. Ready yourself for speed eating because they will make you cram your food in faster since 30 minutes starts whether you got your food with then minutes left to until it's over, you'll be threatened with ensure. Yes it WILL be ice cold even if it's a warm meal! But eat it because they're watching. Always watching. Want to mention the food? Even to people at your table? TROUBLE! BAD! YOU ARE NOT ALLOWED TO TALK ABOUT FOOD! How will this impact you positively? HAH, no it won't. You may need therapy to get over it and will forever hate people observing you while you eat. Why? Because before it came with threats! No one wants the tube up their nose! They will get the tube.
I have shared my experience there with people who have been in prison and they rather pick prison.
They will take everything you could ever think about harming yourself with so much that it taught me a ton of ways I could off myself- which said feeling will come for you if you're in there. Once you are out of the spot they show parents in, you'll notice that all doors and windows are unable to be opened because of how many suicide attempts they get in there. Death did seem sweeter than being there.
A part of me lives there as a ghost. I didn't come out with all of myself. I have gone through a lot of traumatizing things, but would sooner hold the dying and bloody again while and do my own stitches again 200 times before going back there, unless I was going with a torch or a bulldozer. That was the worst decision I ever trusted anyone on in my young life. I rather run into my rapist than go back to that Hell Hotspot. I mean it. This was more damaging and humiliating.
Don't trust them.
I filled a document with 41 pages of their reviews before I decided to stop. All 1 star.