It had been over twenty years that I made the decision to have an abortion. Immediately filled with regret and shame and unable to cope with what I had actually done, I decided to put that part of my life away and never revisit it again, hoping time would heal. Life went on. I left my partner who was abusive, made new friends, moved, changed jobs, married my husband that I have two children with but there was still continued to be this part of my life that I just could not fully revisit. I did not know how to. And despite being able to go on with life, at every doctor appointment that required a health history and every time the topic of abortion would come up, and especially after having birthed our two children, I continued to be reminded of a part of my story that I felt left a hole in my heart, I still felt ashamed and guilty for having made the choice and yet felt I had no right to feel grief for having lost a child since I was the one who ultimately chose to abort.
Long story short, a very dear friend of mine who had no idea that abortion was a deeply hidden part of my story, shared with me about post abortion counseling with Clearway Clinic, a non profit that offers love and support to women who find themselves pregnant or who have had an abortion. Having heard about how impactful this service has been to other women, I was immediately drawn to learn more. Within just a few weeks I was signed up for their post abortion counseling and without making this an incredibly long review, I will say that it was one of the most impactful experiences that I have ever had. I can honestly say that now there is no more shame, there is opportunity to grieve without guilt. The people at Clearway quickly became dear friends and all went above and beyond to help support me as best as they could during the sessions. They were so kind, extremely patient and very loving. I never felt judged, looked down upon or felt like I needed to hide anything. They are all incredible people and I cannot say enough wonderful things about them or this service. I am so grateful for Clearway and I would encourage any woman who either finds themselves pregnant and in need of help, support and information on all your choices to call Clearway. Or if you are someone who has already had an abortion, I would encourage you to utilize this incredible service. read more