I'll just leave this poem here you guys can get the gist of it…read moreThey told me 20 minutes before I was supposed to get into an Uber. And all the things they told me why I couldn't come. They let me in before this is a dual diagnose. I have a drug and a emotional problem. And they know and it's grief it went to someone's desk and they specifically said no. 20 minutes before I even supposed to get into this Uber. I'm rejected and now I'm at home and let's hope fentanyl or something doesn't take me out.
The Weight of Compassion
I've seen it all in recovery's fight,
how we forget the pain our of the darkest night.
We think we're better, we think we've won,
but who are we to turn away anyone?
Addiction can be combative, angry, afraid,
and sometimes it feels like they lost they're way.
"F you" or "go f yourself " sometimes is the best thing I can ever hear
Because It shows me they're ready to fight for their life , but they're still stuck in fear!
But every day is a new chance, a fresh start,
even if they fall, we still have heart.
We think we're strong because we've come this far,
but what's strength if we forget who we are?
Were weren't born in pain, or in love that was lost?
So we can find our strength again and take it back at all costs!
It doesn't matter if you were born rich or born not so lucky
But fuck it what is money?power? Recovery if we still live in shame!
But the point's not where we've come from or been,
it's knowing we're human, we all have our own sin.
Remember the day All we needed was someone to say,
"Here's my hand, let me help you find your way."
I worked in recovery, helped people stand,
But trust me I've seen some fall and die It's shit i'll never comprehend.
my mom always said, " I don't care if they've been here once or 100 times"
let them in because you never know when the miracle will happen.
WE WILL never turned anyone away no matter where they've been!
I believe in divine intervention!
That's why I have integrity and good intentions!
It's not about days, not about the using streak--
It's about the love and compassion, when it's help that they seek.
Addiction has a grip on my boyfriend , and a lot of my friends
and sometimes it feels like there's no end.
But I'll never turn away, no matter how much they've fallen,
because I know the pain of being forgotten.
So If they need help, be here to stand,
whether they stumbled or just need a hand.
For profit isn't worth the price we pay,
when lives are at stake, kiss my ass, we don't ever walk away.
No matter your past, no matter your flaws,
you're still worth the fight, still worth the cause.
I'll never let you drown in the deep,
because compassion's a promise I'll always keep.
So the people that turned me away I say f you in the nicest way.!