He didn't check chart notes or w referring providers who sent me for ptsd care for avoiding routine medical procedures after life threatening medical care such as a cut too close to artery and rebleeding, missed diagnoses resulting in preventable life threatening hospitalization, and unfounded cancer scares with ample radiation exposure and other procedures not following national standards of care, I found out in my follow up with an out-of-state institution that knows standards of care and ruled out the cancers quickly with routine differential diagnosis missed by the diagnosing Oregon providers. He failed imho basic standards of trauma informed care, by not confirming what I reported and instead telling me the bad care I received was my fault and due to personal Behavioral, characterological issues. He actually Justified this conclusion by saying that Karen Oregon is good so it must be me. I experienced him as culturally not competent or curious or aware in the oppressive experience and discrimination of women, of disabled and ethnic minorities interfacing with the medical system. This was before covid-19 while and while this evidence Amplified in covid there were still many studies showing the same discrimination before covid-19 in medical systems if he had any curiosity or instinct to learn before moving to blame me after just a few sessions and not even checking with providers or chart notes as stated earlier...
If there is another explanation I don't know what it is. Providers who are not aware of their health privilege and whiteness and male privilege let alone possible economic privilege and workplace privilege to have that level of Independence, have risk to lack basic understanding of disabled experiences unless they conscientiously guard against privilege by being curious or perhaps benefiting from personal experiences that help them have this basic awareness. These privileges interfering with delivery of care that is useful for me and this was not the first time I experience the able-bodied lacking understanding or compassion. There is also Well documented lack of systemic training and awareness about these discrimination issues in psychological academic programs and medical, so he appears to be a victim of this training much like I'm a victim of his training in my opinion. Anyone curious could read from Mia Mingus on abled Supremacy, our lives are not disposable, or perhaps better yet, his own psychology colleagues speaking to how a psychology is contributed to the demise of the disabled and how they be accountable now if they want to be. https://psycnet.apa.org/record/2020-59952-001
He did prove however that avoiding care is a much better route than seeking out harmful and blaming care. Luckily there are better providers out there but it requires persistence and historical evidence with them to know they at least have enough of an instinct to give the benefit of the doubt that the patient sometimes has reality behind her enough to take her concerns seriously and investigate at the very minimum.
He said that the care in Oregon is good as a justification for his conclusion did the bad care was my fault. Plenty of data were available to confront that assumption but he had no awareness to seek it out. I only sought care from him because I thought he knew specialty brief prolonged exposure and therefore an inkling of trauma-informed Care but like other bad care I received, it was my fault for giving the benefit of the doubt and trusting the care providers. In this way the bad outcomes have been my fault for assuming competency and I take complete responsibility for trusting people like him without enough evidence . Had he taken responsibility to understand this experience and educate himself and apologize, I never would have written this. I hope the references are useful for other patients so they can avoid harm wherever they seek care. You can do a quick search to know how often women are subject to misdiagnosis compared to men, the lack of research on women in medical systems, the oppression of the disabled in medical systems and mental health historically and throughout covid. Again, I am much more aware to beware of providers with white privilege, Health privilege , male privilege, Financial privilege who do not know how to check their privilege at the door or be curious. Stay safe. read more