My husband and I are grateful for Susanna's support during the time we had our miscarriage, and the effort she put into the prenatal appointments. Ultimately, however, we feel that it was not worth anywhere near $7,000 and wish we could get that money back, and erase the negative memories she left on our pregnancy journey and birth experience. We believe that her time has come to stop practicing and hope that she will soon.
Here is a summary of our experience:
Pros:
-Very generous with her time, will stay at prenatal appointments for essentially as long as you need
-An expert on herbal medicine
-Nonjudgmental about people's life experiences and has a progressive mindset
-Sweet and caring demeanor, she loves babies
-Very knowledgeable on the physiology of birth
Cons:
-Speaks negatively about her colleagues behind their backs, even midwives she hires to assist her.
-She does not meet people where they are at, she thinks her way is best, and will shame and push until you cave.
-Combative with hospital staff, which could be very stressful if you end up having a c-section or transferring.
-Don't expect a spiritual experience, I asked her to do guided meditations at the start of our prenatal appointments and she told me to find some on youtube later.
-Concerningly forgetful, has to be constantly reminded of important things in health history
-Almost no education was done on breastfeeding, which was extremely detrimental to us. I suffered greatly and unnecessarily because I didn't know how to breastfeed.
Working with Susanna it quickly became apparent that her decades of experience caused her to have an arrogant and infallible attitude about her, as if she knew better than everyone and was never wrong because she had done this the longest. One example is this: meat and animal products made me extremely sick during my pregnancy but because I had suboptimal iron levels, she constantly pushed me to eat animal products and even told me, "This is about your baby not you." If I hadn't followed her advice to eat meat I would have had a wonderful nausea-free pregnancy.
Despite all the cons we listed above, we were still hopeful for a wonderful homebirth or doula experience with her. But unfortunately, Susanna completely disappointed us and let us down. She did not catch that our baby was breech and had been breech for about two months. She was CONVINCED that he flipped one day to the next during week 35, which was completely untrue. I brought up my concerns that my baby was glued to one spot and wouldn't move and she said it was "fine". For weeks the "head" she was feeling was actually a butt, but she was convinced that my 9lb 4oz baby flipped spontaneously in the late third trimester without me realizing it. Before the 36w ultrasound discovered he was breech, she had talked to us about discontinuing care with Kaiser as an option. Thank God we didn't!! Susanna would have had us deliver a breech baby at home because she didn't realize (despite her decades of experience) that he was head up!
We opted for a scheduled c section after an unsuccessful ecv- we had talked to Susanna about her being there post-op for aftercare support. Susanna insisted on coming pre-op, and did nothing but sit in the chair in the room with her feet up, eating chips, and barking at kaiser staff causing my husband and I to be extremely uncomfortable and add a lot of stress. She tried to control the entire room and questioned every nurse about everything, starting unnecessary conflict that nobody asked for. I think she felt she was being an advocate for us, but it was more stressful than anything. Post-op, she barges into our recovery room, barring our family from entering because she has something "important" that she needs to discuss with us, and says she has a family emergency and must leave. We were in a daze and had no choice but to see her off. But not before my family walks in the room, and she loudly announces to them all, "you should all leave, she needs to rest." We had never told her anything about our family not being welcome, in our culture it is customary for all of the family to come immediately and this is exactly what we wanted. It was very awkward and made them feel unwelcome.
We told Susanna to take her time with her family emergency because we didn't even want her around us after what happened. I suffered so much with breastfeeding in those first few days, and you would think for $7,000 she would cover how to latch a baby. She sent another midwife to see us at home when we were discharged, which was a lovely experience, and afterwards Susanna spoke negatively about her questioning her skills, which was one of the last nails in the coffin for us. It was so disrespectful and distasteful. It took us a long time to sort out our feelings about our experience and birth, and after the second postpartum visit we told her exactly how we felt that she didn't serve us and that we didn't need her to come around anymore. read more