Growing up I had several traumas, and unfortunate events happen in my life. Like many people, my…read moreperspective was that I was a "victim". As I became an adult, and overcame the past, or so I thought, bad things continued to happen. I found myself in an abusive marriage, and then a single mom of two kids with "disabilities". I was working full time supporting them, my mom, nineteen employees, and myself. Not only was I supporting them all, providing for them, and going to multiple doctors' appointments a week; I was also carrying their stress, pain, and disconnect, with me daily. I hated my life, I didn't understand why all the bad things happen to me. Every time I turned around there was another bad thing I needed to deal with.
I looked for my worth in others, friends, kids, family, and mostly men. Every time I met someone, I would feel happy, beautiful, successful, smart, hardworking, etc. The moment I found out this person was not Mr. Right, I became depressed again, low, I hated myself, and my life. I put all of my happiness and value in the hands of someone else, someone that at the time I was calling into my life vibrationally, and they were exactly what I didn't want.
I soon found myself stuck in bed, crying, not showering, eating everything in sight, calling into work, and not wanting to live. Then my dad suggested for the 10th time, that I go see Derika, I agreed. She was able to see me that day. I walked into her office crying, thankfully I forced myself to shower, and feeling as if she was my last hope of surviving. It is now six weeks later, and I for the first time in my entire life, feel alive, at peace, truly happy, and enjoying all the world has to offer. Derika helped me find the person I needed to make me happy, the person I needed my validation from; the person I needed to help me have my dream job, dream man, dream house, and dream life. I found me.
With love,
Jo