Was trying to quit blues / oxy and to survive and it was looking really dim.. none of the options sounded good.. the thought of trading one addiction for another did not seem like an option to me.. I really wanted to be off everything and get back to bein on nothing.. but that did not seem like a possibility..
Decided to try CBD based on studies from a few yrs ago.. (2019).. I really did not have much faith in it to be honest...
But I was willing to try anything other than the standard other stuff where you're trading one thing for another...
I went to the ZAR store in Conroe.. I don't live in Conroe, but I had to come here so that I would have friends who could care for me during this difficult period of time... Friends who are lucky to work from home..
When I was at the Zar store, the people there were very nice... I also called ahead and they said that I could bring my little pup with me. I had him with me because I couldn't leave him at home... I didn't have anybody responsible at home that I could trust to care for my pup... Sad but true.. so he had to come with me all the way to Houston...
Anyhow, back to the Zar store, there were these two guys and they were very friendly, calm and patient and able to give me various suggestions, and although they were not medical professionals, their suggestions worked for me...
One guy was white his name was Justice? and the other guy was probably Latino / Spanish and also really nice but probably was shy, and he didn't do much talking and just smiled and stayed in the back of the store..
I didn't have that much cash with me so I had to tip them on my credit card and I felt bad about that... I always try to tip in cash when I can...
Anyhow, I decided to try the 2000 mg full spectrum drops and combine them with some gummy rings which were 1200 mg, I took a half a dropper of the drops, every 12 hours, but sometimes I just added more... And the gummy rings I probably had a few each day... But I was told that if I wanted to take them every four hours that I could have...
As far as tapering down Oxy, I was able to go from a baseline of 4 to 5 pills on a Monday to 1.5 pills a few days later (Wed).
I had a half a pill by Tues 6:30 PM, a quarter by midnight, 2 AM I had another quarter and I had another half at 10 AM this morning, so there's been quite markedly, a decrease in the amount of that bad stuff that I needed to take.. and it sounds too good to be true so we'll have to wait and see of course..
I can't speak for everyone but for me, it took away that need to reach for the bad stuff and although I feel like total crap, I was still able to care for my one dog that I took with me. So it wasn't like 100% crap... If I had to describe it, I probably feel like 65% or 70% crap?
I was prepared for the worst... I had even gone to the grocery store to purchase these elderly, disposable undergarment things that probably work like diapers on babies... So far I haven't needed to use them.. I talked to my friends about it, the fear of soiling myself.. and how embarrassing it was, and they were ever so nice and said to never worry.. oh my.. I love them so much!
I didn't have nausea or anything but yes, parts of my body really hurt like I fell down a flight of stairs but that's nothing.. I would take this over headaches any day (which is why I dont drink alcohol) so yes this stuff really works for me.
I thought long and hard before writing this, and potentially getting judged by everyone.. harshly.. for sharing my experience.. but if it helps one or two people out there, then probably getting hit by insults by other people will be worth it..
Being on the bad stuff for four years and it slowly eating me up alive... Sure I look good and I'm skinny as skinny could ever be, but I could see that my days were numbered and that I had to get off it to survive..
I read somewhere that it's a better idea to try to quit things when it's nice and sunny outside as opposed to doing it over Thanksgiving or Christmas when it's dreary and cold outside and here in Houston -- now raining every day... If I could have picked a better time. I would have.. maybe like spring or summer.
It's looking pretty good for me so gosh I hope this helps someone out there be normal and free and happy again.. And not need anything bad anymore..
Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and my girlfriend said that we were invited to eat at her other girlfriends house... But honestly, that's the last thing on my mind... As long as I'm still making progress, I was prepared to go through this for a week and a half or however, long it took, but looks like it should only take about four days or so so I'm praying for the best outcome.. read more