I am the patient Misty R is referring to; unless you assume I'm lying, her not being the patient is irrelevant. Solstice removed my aunt's review after ignoring all her true points in their reply. Both spoke for me because I was so traumatized by how narges & dee treated me that it's taken me these months to recover & reply. I went in for suicidal thoughts/ideations, & a minor attempt. What they taught (mostly via ted eds, not actual teaching) was improving my view on life & myself. But then I had to go to a class about learning from a higher power, & they don't specify which, just any. I could opt out of the class, but then wouldn't get a punch for snacks, tampons, etc., from the shop, so they'd punish me by depriving me of needs/treats. As someone with religious trauma it was upsetting to be forced to attend. A patient w/religious psychosis watched intently beside me & said after her ideas of the rapture had changed.
They force patients into uncomfortable scenarios, treating vastly different issues with the same lesson plan & barely different meds. Seizure patients had no access to any real rest after seizures; if they fell asleep during a lesson for even 10 minutes, they were rudely awoken, none of which is why I desperately had to leave. There is a teacher there who is a tall, older white cis man & was openly in the military. He was told prior to his man/woman based lesson that I'm neither of those things. He ignored dee, my case mgr & tried to force me into the group he felt I resembled. I told him I wasn't comfortable & asked to join the other group first instead. He told me no & that I could just leave, so I left AS HE TOLD ME TO DO. This much older taller man then LEFT HIS CLASS ALONE to stand above me in an armchair blocking me in while hovering, gesturing wildly, & berating me for leaving & not participating. I consistently responded with "you did not respect me, so I don't respect you" & he replied "it's not about respect". That continued with him talking over me, though I wasn't yelling, until he gave up & left after saying I didn't respect him, contradicting his earlier statement. Anyone with similar trauma knows that was a terrifying, humiliating, painful experience. I no longer felt safe, & their response to him being physically threatening to me alone in a room after being abused by my father with the same values was to TALK TO HIM AGAIN & put me in his next class. I requested a meeting to discuss LEAVING, but dee told my aunt & mom it was an INTRODUCTORY MEETING to prepare everyone for future meetings. Clearly she would not discuss me leaving despite my inability to sleep after the interaction with the scary man & pleading to leave. Dee stared at me emotionless while using my aunt's name, saying I wouldn't be going home with her that day. She TOLD me that. Every time I asked her "yes or no can I legally leave right now" she wouldn't answer, saying "I've told you all the reasons you're not leaving today" because SHE MADE THE DECISION FOR ME. It was sick. I as a grown adult checked myself in, was treated badly, & wanted to leave to feel safe again; they LIED TO me & ABOUT me to my family, not even checking on my progress until I (after being told that my fear response of having a meltdown & screaming is exactly why I belonged there, calling me crazy for being traumatized & feeling trapped & unsafe) finally screamed until narges caved & told me I can legally walk out the doors since I never signed away my rights & that was always an option. However it's a DEGRADING option with a semi locked door with a loud blaring siren if you touch it, & you have to leave with only the clothes on your back & hope you can call your family at the gas station to get you, then return to get your stuff. When I asked them why I couldn't just check out then if I can leave she (as always, condescendingly) said they were "holding me to my commitments". Narges, I know you're reading this & I know you well remember me, commitments go out the window when you let old men yell at a traumatized suicidal 21yo for being trans. When you abuse people who were abused, they feel unsafe & react. Because I WAS unsafe with you; mentally. I was safer where I was suicidal the first time than where I couldn't even sleep from fear & humiliation for being myself & doing as I was told. But fabricate a reply accusing me of lying, or hide this like you hid my aunts. I know the truth. My whole family does. My whole workplace does. I tell them all exactly who it was that allowed their staff to treat abuse victims like trash for feeling unsafe or having seizures & being tired. I tell them how you talked to me when I was terrified for my safety & sanity in a room with the man who treated me like that. I didn't even mention the primarily healthy people who desperately want out & are trapped there by abusive family & can't leave. It made me sick leaving anyone in that place. read more