God Bless you, All. I want to mention..... I needed to Reply back that I don't know if the Pastor…read moreknows the Serious Severity of his decision for me to "Take a Break", this year.
But, I Know God Allowed it.
It was Devastating and Tbh, Idk if I will ever Get over it. It Caused Great Harm.
The Sabotoge was so Great. But, I Know Jesus is More Powerful than the Sabotoge and Witchcraft, Overall.
Lots of people were Hurt by the Pastor and Leadership. People who Genuinely Loved this Church and wanted to Be Here & Grow in Christ.
I Shared my sins and Vulnerabilities, coz I Needed Help. . .
For them to be used Against me..... was ( I don't have the words for it.)
I Know the Stuff I share Here is Embarrassing. But, it's Real.
It's TMI + Personal. But, this is my Story. And, what I Experienced. But, God will Get the Glory when He Restores and Fixes Everything, in Jesus' Name, Amen!
As He is a God of Miracles, the Supernatural, and Restoration. And, I Do Believe in Miracles.
It wasn't ok that the Pastor Knew I was gong through DV and that I was Separated through the Holidays.... And, instead of Offering Any Support or Connection with the people at Church...(And, I Just GOT Through the Holidays....which was Really Hard, Btw)
& so, After the Holidays... Early Jan....that was when he Directed me to go to Therapy and to "Take a Break", from Church.
Note: This Church Helped me Over the years, as I tuned in~ online, while being in DV, Narcissistic Abuse ... as it got Worst over the years. .
In 2024, at this Point, it was the Only thing that got me Up + Out of Bed.
I Trusted them, with my Life. And, Soul.
Not being Able to go to Church Tk, where I gleaned from, was Devastating and Took a Major Hit, in my Life.
But, I Know Rejection is God's Protection.
And, Therapy? For a Church that Casts out demons..... Lols. Ok.
But, I Know it's because he didn't Know how to Help me.
I wasn't asking for Much...Just Empathy.
( Note: I Took my Recovery Journey Srsly. And, have been going for Almost 4 years...since 2020... Plus doing my doing my Research, as I was Fighting for my Life Against Narc Abuse, Gaslighting and Manipulation.
I Fought so Hard to be Here, at this Church, over the Years, Admist Abuse... + Spiritual Warfare.
I don't Believe he or the Other Leaders , or whomever Read my Prayers on their Website, Understood, How Hard I Already it.
The Aftermath of what Happened this year, Has been Devastating...despite, the HUGE Victory Had, in 2024.
No Accountability or Reconciliation had taken place, Yet. And, it's Been a year.
Unfortunately,
None with the others who were Hurt/Harmed by this Church (who were Here Before me + didn't Speak up) were Taken as Well. . And, it Already has been a couple of years, since they Left....
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So, this Church Culture Equip the Saints & 'Send people Out', through the Fire Academy Delieverance Training, which is Very Good. But, I Also Noticed there IS a High Turn over rate.
When I First spoke up Earlier, this year, & Exposed things, there had been Lots of Image Control, which is....Manipulation.
The Worship is very Sincere. But, I also don't think the Pastor's wife, really Knew what was going on....if she was Allowed to Read my Reviews, ....in the Beginning.
Note: I've Already Experienced Spiritual Abuse, in a Previous Cult Experience, Prior. . . on my way Trying to Find Jesus in the Church......
In Religious cults, when the Church or Leadership is called out. . There is More Serving, more 'Good' Religious deeds, Great Preaching, Anointed Worship to Not Look like there's a Problem, or that they are not in the Wrong.
It's Manipulation, when No Accountability is Taken. They're Devoted and On Fire, Yes. But, there Still Needs to Be Accountability...
(Please Note: to the Unbelievers + Skeptics Out There, Reading.....
This Experience wasn't & Isn't God because
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God is LOVE. God is SAFE. And, God is GOOD. ...Despite, the Bad. God is NOT Control.
Control is Manipulation & Witchcraft...)
My Intentions for Exposure, even at the Expense of having to Share Personal detail,
is for Accountability.
I Truly had a Love for this Church.
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So, the Damage has Been done.
Although, I will Not Limit God/Jesus. As He's Still on the Throne.
But, It's going to Take a HUGE Miracle.
I Hope God will Truly Have His Way Here, concerning All This,
as This Church was one of the Best.
I Wish Everyone well.....
JESUS Wins. And, It is Finished.
God Bless you,
Daughter of the King
Ps) I don't Appreciate whoever is praying delieverance on me, making me Sneeze.
I don't know your Intentions, nor do you have my Trust. I don't Appreciate you Entering my Sphere.
What is Needed is Reconciliation, not Power Plays. God Bless you
Edit: Again, I don't Like whomever Prayed for me to Sneeze ...After I Stated my Boundary, Here.. that really Upset me. I'm gonna Need more than that to Repair my Entire Life, of the damages done. Note: Ppl Laughing, Gossiping at This. God has a way of Turning Tables.